And aside from one fit of yelling about sandwiches, and two panicky posts on Tumblr (where the extent of the insanity was word vomit, and a quickening of my pulse/heartbeat), there have been no panic attacks, no meltdowns.

I’m actually very proud of myself.

:)

My life coach (who isn’t really my life coach, just a really good friend who was a year or two ahead of me at her law school, and used to be my brother’s 8th grade history teacher, and is now an attorney who gives me lots of advice and likes to call herself my life coach) said that I’d have one or two complete meltdowns where I’d freak out and cry and hyperventilate and then be fine.

But I haven’t! I’m ok! I’m scared of failing and I feel like I know nothing, but I know that I know quite a lot.

I really don’t know anything about Wills or Trusts, and they’re going to be on the Bar for sure, so I better know something about both by Tuesday morning, but that’s it. I’ve decided, screw Federal Tax. And screw Admin. They’re very unlikely to be on the Bar. I’m going to glance at my Admin outlines just in case, but I won’t freak out about it. I’m going to focus more on Secured Transactions and Commercial Paper, which is full of all these rules that I just can’t keep straight (when does order paper become bearer paper? I gotta know this!). I’m good on all the MBE subjects, which is the multiple choice portion on Wednesday, and they might possible do some essays from those subjects, in which case I’m good. I hope I get a Torts essay! I kick ass at Torts. And Property. I’m okay with Contracts, too and Crim Law and Crim Pro are my SCENE. I hope I get something from there.

The Bar exam is on Tuesday and Wednesday. This is the scariest exam of my life. I’m going to get through it.

(If you’re Muslim and reading this, if you wouldn’t mind making dua for me, I’d appreciate it. Gah.)

Let’s do this, jerks. Let’s do this.